Injuries suck. And every runner, sooner or later, will have one. It may be big and take you out for months. It may be small and only briefly interrupt your running. But no matter what, you are sure to go through the "
Five Stages of Injury", as coined by Beth over at
Shut and Run ~ I give her full credit for laying it out so nicely.
"1. Denial – Are you f*cking kidding me? My marathon
is in {insert number} weeks and I’ve trained my ass off. There is no way
I’m not running this thing, even if I have to crawl. It’s just a pain
in my hip. I’m sure I just pulled a muscle dancing on the pole. Or maybe
this pain is a figment of my imagination, part of tapering madness. I’m
sure I’m fine.
2. Anger – Are you f*cking
kidding me? This still hurts, might be worse. Why me? I didn't do
anything wrong. Everyone else can run and not get injured. Hell, Dean
freaking Karnazes is running across the United States and he never gets
injured. This sucks. I don’t deserve this. I pay my taxes, I follow a
training plan. I bought the stinking $100 shoes that they told me to buy
at that damn store.
3. Bargaining – You are not
f*cking kidding me. I’m hurt. I get it. But, I swear if I am healed
enough by marathon day to at least complete the race I will never
{insert vice: cuss, drink, over train, do meth, run with scissors, yell
at my kids, lick a knife} again. Once I complete this race, I will rest
for a really long time and go to the doctor. I swear. Just let me run
this race.
4. Depression – (warning: here’s
where it gets really ugly). I’m f*cked. I’m out of the race. Hell, I
might never run again. I hate swimming and biking and most of all
running in the water. I want to run. I only like running and I am
nothing without running. I will get fat. I will get lazy. I will lose
all of my fitness. Why bother getting out of bed?
5. Acceptance – I
can’t race. I can’t even run right now. But, it’s going to be okay. I
am still an athlete, I am still a runner, I am just recovering. I will
be back. Stronger than ever. Even though I can’t run, there are other
things I can do to maintain my fitness. Even though I can’t run, I am
still worthy. There is more to me than being a runner."
As someone who has been out of commission since August, I can tell you this is pretty spot on. I think part of the reason this injury has been so stubborn is partly due to the fact that I was stuck in the Denial stage for so long. It was a rapid descent into Anger, Bargaining and Depression from about September on. Once I fully realized that I was going to be out for a while, I wavered between Depression and Acceptance for quite a while.
In fact, it's only been in the past month that I finally feel like I am solidly in the final stage of Acceptance. Mentally, I've kept my head down so I could focus on recovering stronger than before. Doing something proactive helped alleviate the depression. Not totally of course....actual measurable progress was what it finally took to move past that mentally. And since this has been on my mind quite a bit, it was only appropriate that my current favorite blogger,
The Hungry Runner Girl also did a post on
injury recovery the other day. This one focused on the mental aspects of getting yourself to Acceptance stage.
These efforts are in three parts - Get Proactive, Focus on the Short Term and Focus on the Long Term, which will ultimately allow you to get to the final part, the ultimate goal- to "Come Back Stronger". Getting proactive means you get to focus on other stuff, like cross training - and taking a break from running allows you to examine what might have led to the injury in the first place. Focusing on the short term is really just another way of saying 'Take it one day at a time". Looking at the long term will keep the focus on coming back smarter and not getting re-injured. All of that makes you tougher...and better able to handle the beatings our bodies take while we all try to become Kara Goucher.
Good advice. I wasn't sure I'd be able to run the same way again....But now I think that I'll be back. And be stronger than before.
